"Yes, I’m Alive…" explains Gary Lamb, former pastor of Revolution Church.
Let me start off by saying THANK YOU for all the emails and prayers. I’ve been blown away by the amount of grace and encouragement that has been sent our way. Even some of my biggest critics have emailed to let me know they are praying. I truly appreciate it.
I’ve received over 3,000 emails and I haven’t responded to any of them due to the fact that I need to process some things and take some time to get my head clear. As many e-mails as I have gotten, there seems to be basically the same questions asked over and over. So many of you have been such a vital part of my life over the last few years whether it was through attending Revolution or reading my blog, I feel like the least I can do is answer some of the generic questions. At this time I’m going to pass on answering questions about my family as we are still sorting through all of that, but I’ll do my best to answer some of the other questions you’ve asked.
How are you doing?
That depends on when you ask. :) My emotions literally change by the hour. I would say overall, I’m good. As crazy as it sounds, I am so glad to not be carrying around the guilt of hiding what I was doing. While my situation right now it is not what I wanted or thought would happen a few months ago, it is what it is. I’m focused on my relationship with Christ and I’m focused on the next steps in this adventure called life.
The bottom line is life continues and I can wallow around doing nothing or I can get busy letting God point me in the right direction for the next steps in my life.
What is next?
Honestly, I have no idea. I thought I would die pastoring Revolution Church so I never once thought about what I would do outside of ministry. I have a few leads on jobs and even have a couple of job offers, but I’m praying through those right now. Everyone always told me I would be a great in sales so we’ll see if that is true or not in the coming months.
Just because you have an affair and lose your job doesn’t mean the bills stop coming so finding the right fit in the job market is a pretty big priority right now. Your prayers for wisdom in this area are appreciated.
Will I be returning as the pastor of Revolution?
No. That chapter of my life is over. Let me say again that I agree 100% with the decision by our board to ask for my resignation. I was in blatant sin that at this time disqualifies me from pastoring. I know this is hard to accept by so many people who attend Revolution because Revolution is a place of grace, forgiveness, and for less than perfect people. It still is all of those things but as I said in my resignation letter there are consequences for sin.
What is the future of Revolution?
I have no idea. As I said above that chapter in my life is over. My prayer is that it will stay a place that is doing whatever it takes to reach those far from God. That is in the DNA of Revolution and Canton needs a place that is doing whatever it takes to reach those far from God.
I do know this: Revolution is God’s church. Contrary to popular belief it was not the Gary Lamb show. God has a man and a plan to lead Revolution to greater things and greater impact. I look forward to seeing it happen. God used me to start Revolution and DeAnna and my children will still be attending there, so to say I have a vested interest in seeing her do great things would be an understatement.
Will I be starting another church?
Hands down this has been the #1 question asked. There is no easy answer to this question. I have no idea what the future holds and I have no idea how God will lead in the coming days, months, and years. All I can tell you is that today, June 19th, 2009 that starting a church is the farthest thing from my mind.
I believe with everything that is in me that God is not through with me in a full-time ministry role but I do believe He has me on the sidelines right now to get some things right in my life. I’ve been asked by a few people to do some church planting coaching and consultating on being portable, but even those things are not something I’m ready to tackle today.
Let me close out this post by again saying THANK YOU. I would love for you to continue to pray for me as I seek God as to what the future holds. I know some of you will disagree with the fact that I’m posting online and I understand that, but I’ve lived my life online for 5 years and have many online relationships as a result. Being online from time to time allows me to communicate with those people in my life and it allows me to feel some sort of normalcy.
BTW, I will be posting another post this week that you don’t want to miss. I have received over 30 emails from pastors (all anonymous) confessing to be involved currently in sexual affairs. As I read these emails it was like someone punched me in the gut. NO ONE knows what you’re going through like I do and I want to give you guys the reality of what your involved in but I want to take some time to allow God to get my thoughts straight before I post.